This is me rambling:
I recently had to go without my medication for about a week because of some severe price changes by the pharmaceutical company that makes the generic version of Adderal XR. I started to remember just what a blessing my meds were as I tried to sit for long periods of time and read the immense amount of pages that were assigned in my various classes this week.
I have lived most of my life by creating and establishing coping mechanisms that allow me to get things done. When I started to take medication it was like having super powers! I could sit for long periods of time and work on one thing. With medication also came the motivation to start projects a little earlier than I was used to in the past. Procrastination was a way of life for me and the pressure of having to get things done at the last minute created a positive challenge that spurred me into action. The problem with all of this was not that I didn’t complete things or that I did them with mediocre quality. It was that I succeeded in doing quality work and was successful in what I concentrated on when I concentrated on it. The weird thing was that I had many irons in the fire and without the pressure of some sort of deadline they would fade off of my radar and into obscurity.
I came to find out (as I started taking medication) that my so called “super powers” were just plain old normal ways people thought and accomplished everyday things. With medication, I am able to eat the proverbial elephant one bight at a time. It is much easier to sit down and think out papers or projects from beginning to end. No matter what the size. Before I would dread that process. I would much rather just jump into something and see where it would lead. This made for some interesting things as I would get distracted after a brief period and move on to something. My wife has multiple stories of the things I was going to “fix” throughout the house, the dishes that I was going to “wash”, the books that I was started to “arrange”. It seems now that I am on medication I am more mindful of the way I can steadily work through things. That doesn’t mean I use my super powers on a regular basis. Sometimes, as will become clear to the readers of this blog, I just enjoy jumping into things and going wherever it takes me. Sitting down and being focused is just a lot easier to me now that I am on medication.
I think a lot of ADHD symptoms can be controlled by the individual with good old fashion coping mechanisms. Medication is nice and makes life a lot easier but, as I said before, I have only started using meds in the last three years. Some people with ADHD engage in self-destructive behavior because they get so frustrated with their inability to get things done that it seems like a good option. At least they can be in control of something. As a follower of Christ, self-destructive behavior seemed like a pretty stupid choice for me. I admit that I did not do things like drugs or body augmentation. I didn’t even take part in things like orgies, occultic rituals, twister chasing or shoplifting. I would love to say that this was mostly out of a plethora of piety. But to be honest it really was due to a spiritual arrogance in that I didn’t want to be identified with a bunch of dirty pagans.
More on this later…….